BAM

I felt like I was literally hit by a freight train yesterday.

Talking to my daughter on the phone and learned that your husband of 22 years told her that he had not loved her for the past 7 years.  WHAT????  Out of the blue, his words came to her.

The marriage produced 3 wonderful grandsons for me.  Ages range from 21 to 15.  Always such a loving and happy family; or so we all thought.  She has practically raised the boys by herself as her husband spent many weeks away from home at a time, trying to further his career.  Always the selfish of the selfish.

Why does a person wait for 7 years to tell someone they no longer love them?  Why do you lead that person along, talking about and planning for later years?  There may be answers but they are very slow in coming.

Infidelity???  Quite possibly.

I pray that God serves His revenge on this man who has destroyed my daughter's heart, spirit and self worth.  I pray that God allows her to see the revenge.  I pray God gives her peace of mind, strength and comfort.  I pray that she can learn to accept the fact that she is not a failure.

Father God, hold this family together during this time.  Allow my daughter and grandsons peace, hope and comfort as they try to move forward into the unknown.

How are you wound up?

Each of us are wound in different ways each day.  A lot of it has to do with our choices.  Are you a fast paced person?  A slow paced person?  I am sure there is an in between or two, but not sure of the reference.

Most every day, I am the "fast paced wound woman".  My husband tells me all the time that I can not move 20' from point A to point B with speeding.  Why?  My nature has always been fast.

I don't like wasting time.  I don't like seeing people "drag around".  I have no idea why I am like this but sadly, I am.  I am the loser here, in my fast pace, I am running faster than God can heap blessings on me.  

I make myself tired with all my rushing.  Life would be so much more enjoyable if I could just learn..... to.....slow.....down......the.......fast............pace.

I see beauty all around me that my eyes, heart, mind and soul could spend time enjoying....but there is no slow times to meditate and reflect.  No time to enjoy the gifts of God.  

Today I choose to slow down the pace of my life.  God Help Me! I want slower, I need slower, I beg for slower.  

I will start a Bible Study on "Living, so that" by Wendy Blight" this month.  I do SO need this study to help me slow down, reflect and meditate on His word.  To learn and listen to what He is saying to me.   I want to hear Him saying to me.....Charlotte, you are living, so that..."

He wants to talk to me and I know it is a daily attempt on my Father's part to have conversation,  but my "fast paced being" has broken the lines of good and solid communication.  

This is about to change and I so need this change.  Time to shut out the outside noises, time to slow down my life and just "be in my Lord's presence".

Living too fast??  Want to slow down??  Join me and we can blaze a new path together.