BAM

I felt like I was literally hit by a freight train yesterday.

Talking to my daughter on the phone and learned that your husband of 22 years told her that he had not loved her for the past 7 years.  WHAT????  Out of the blue, his words came to her.

The marriage produced 3 wonderful grandsons for me.  Ages range from 21 to 15.  Always such a loving and happy family; or so we all thought.  She has practically raised the boys by herself as her husband spent many weeks away from home at a time, trying to further his career.  Always the selfish of the selfish.

Why does a person wait for 7 years to tell someone they no longer love them?  Why do you lead that person along, talking about and planning for later years?  There may be answers but they are very slow in coming.

Infidelity???  Quite possibly.

I pray that God serves His revenge on this man who has destroyed my daughter's heart, spirit and self worth.  I pray that God allows her to see the revenge.  I pray God gives her peace of mind, strength and comfort.  I pray that she can learn to accept the fact that she is not a failure.

Father God, hold this family together during this time.  Allow my daughter and grandsons peace, hope and comfort as they try to move forward into the unknown.

Words Like Flames

Good advice but all too often we fail to follow our own advice.  How quickly a simple litte difference of thoughts and opinions can become sharp and ugly words spewing off the tongue, past the teeth and burning the lips as they are hurled at someone.

ZAP! that fire covered word slaps the person you love smack in the face.  You see the pain that the flamed word causes and at first, your face smirks with pleasure.  But all too soon that smirk turns into pain that is mirrored off the face of that person you love. 

What Happened???  How did it go this far?? After all, it was only a little difference in opinion just a few minutes ago and now two people are covered in pain.  No one, especially her, likes to admit that she have made a mistake.  As well, no one else, especially the one that she loves, is willing to admit that he made a mistake.  So...the pain goes on....

No one want to speaks first, but just a few minutes ago, TOO much speaking was going on.  The silence goes on, the pain goes on. 

Both are wrong, but neither will admit it.....PRIDE has reared it's ugly head.  Satan is happy that his main weapon of choice has found it's target.  The silence goes on, the pain goes on. 

Poem by Julius Sturm

Pain's furnace heat within me quivers, God's breath upon the flame doth blow; And all my heart in anguish shivers And trembles at the fiery glow; And yet I whisper, "As God will!" And in the hottest fire hold still.

 He comes and lays my heart, all heated, On the hard anvil, minded so Into His own fair shape to beat it With His great hammer, blow on blow; And yet I whisper, "As God will!" And at His heaviest blows hold still.

 He takes my softened heart and beats it; The sparks fly off at every blow; He turns it o'er and o'er and heats it, And lets it cool, and makes it glow; And yet I whisper, "As God will!" And in His mighty hand hold still.

 Why should I murmur? for the sorrow Thus only longer-lived would be; The end may come, and will tomorrow, When God has done His work in me; So I say trusting, "As God will!" And, trusting to the end, hold still. --Julius Sturm